While I think about my life and how much it has changed in the last 2 years I think mostly about how I thought after Kylynns dad came home that I was trapped in a relationship that was loveless at least on my end and unhappy. When we got our own apartment I made the obligation to pay bills and take care of my family. So when him and I would get into fights and I would think about leaving I would justify staying to myself by saying that I pay the bills why should I leave. Now I look back and ask myself if all that was worth it.
No it wasnt and I also used to justify staying by telling myself I had nowhere else to go. But now that I am outside my own head and I look at the big picture I had so many places to go. I guess I wanted so bad for my family to work that I made myself think I had nowhere else to go.
I dont wish that I had never met Kylynns dad and I would never say that I regret ever being with him because if I said those things I would regret my daughter and that is one thing I could never regret. Kylynn is my everything and she is the main reason I get up every morning and the main reason I will get through all of this and I will come out on top!! Because I am a survivor and no man is gonna knock me down and keep me there.
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