My history

Ok so I have decided to start a blog about my life and being a single mom. How I got here where I am and the trials and tribunes I go through everyday without the help of my daughter's father. There is alot behind the relationship of me and my daughter's dad. But I will tell you about my daughter. Her name is Kylynn Janet Helwig, born February 15th 2010 at 9:01pm. She is an amazing child and I cant see my life without her now.
When I found out I was pregnant I thought I had it made. I had the man I thought at the time I was going to marry by my side. Then when I was 2 months pregnant he went to prison for a year. I then found myself alone and totally lost with this new life growing inside me. I went through my pregnancy and labor and delivery without my "other half". It was not easy I would watch tv shows of couples having their children and being supported by one another and would cry. I want so bad to share that moment when Kylynn came into the world with her dad.
But for me, as for many other single moms too, I took that journey not completly alone but without the one who help put me there. Kylynn's dad did not even find out that I had her until she was a month old. He got out of prison when Kylynn was 4 months old and I thought for sure things would work out, my family would be together and things had changed. I was wrong...
When her dad came home he decided on the first night to get really drunk. He asked me why I didnt want to stay up and spend time with him. I look him in the eyes and said "because I have a baby to take care of when she gets up in the morning". He didnt seem to understand that our lives had changed forever. The next night he decided to have his family come and visit and get yet again completly drunk. I had had enough...
I sent him home to Chicago with his family, I couldnt stand the fact that he didnt seem to care that there was a small person depending on us 100%. He left for about 2 months before he decided to call and see if he could come home. I waited for him to call for those 2 months and didnt think it would take him that long to want to be re-united with his family. So when he came home again we tried to start over to make things work...
Lets just say they didnt get any better.